Utah Uni

At present I have found myself to be in an "educational slump." What I mean, is simply that I am in no mood to receive or retain an education at present. And yet... the little lederhosen-wearing leprechaun in the back of my head reminds me that I really do. So, what do you do when your mind is having a battle for Middle Earth of its own and the bad side is winning? You blog of course!

And so... I find myself here after invoking a facebook ban until I get back into the groove of things. Lately I have been slipping into spats of laziness (which consist of me not doing homework or readings... etc). This usually happens for one or two classes that I really do not care about like my LEAP class and Math... but this time I have been doing it for every single class. INCLUDING the ones I love the most (i.e. German, Buddhist Art, Baroque Art). So what will be the result of this ridiculous state of mind?

On the other side of things, I got my Buddhist Art midterm back today. I got a B+ and I am PISSED...OFF. I hate anything that is not an "A." I don't care if it's pretty good considering it's my first upper division midterm... I wants me an A! ha ha ha. I had done everything perfectly. The slide I.D.'s: perfect. Vocabulary: perfect. Compare/Contrast essay: perfect. The Four Truths Segment: perfect. The essay at the end: didn't have enough information. Godddammmnniit. I am not a fan. Ah well, I will just have to kick the trash out of the next one.

Peace.

Words of Encouragement

So I am in this Northern Baroque class that has an emphasis on the work of Rembrandt and we had to find some aspect of Dutch art and apply it to three works by Rembrandt that all focused in on a 5-10 year period. We had to formulate our ideas into either an abstract or an outline. I chose to do an abstract seeing as how i had only used outlines in the past (even then a couple times)... and I am not that big of a fan of how they are structured. So i fill out this abstract with great difficulty because I like inserting the classic "art history bullshit" with all the flowy adjectives and what not. I go to the class and I strike up a conversation with this other girl who i've talked to a couple times before. The conversation goes as follows, starting with me:

"I never really like doing these kinds of things, I like the bullshit."

"Have you ever had Muller (the professor) before?"

"No, I haven't."

"Oh well this is all you do."

"Writing abstracts?"

"Yup."

"Oh... well damn."

"Yeah, I hope you do better on your first abstract than I did. It was the worst grade i'd ever gotten, I almost cried."

"Um... yeah, thanks."

And I walk away.
I'd like to thank that snippy little blonde for her words of encouragement. Thank you.

Bad Day (Schlechter Tag)

How a generally good day... turned into a bad day in the course of one hour.


From 4:00 p.m. to 5:00 p.m. I discovered that two of my friends have cancer and that my "loving" father who was court ordered to take care of my insurance, let my health insurance and dental lapse so he could send his two step sons to fucking mormon camp.

gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Hookah

So my roommate and I are thinking of investing in a mini-hookah. Normally someone would want one that is over a foot tall, but those average out to $150.00 that neither of us have. So we are thinking of getting a small $50.00 one that we can just smoke in our bathroom with the fan on or something. We both discovered that we slept the BEST after smoking a bowl of hookah. Since we both have insomnia, this hookah thing is cheaper then actually going out and buying medication that may or may not make you sick.

Hookah can get you sick, but that's after a lot of it (just like anything). I tend to have very blissful nights after smoking hookah. I get to sleep fast... I stay asleep... and wake up feeling like I had just hibernated for a good few months. Methinks a good dosage of this sleeping pill alternative about once every week will set me nice and easy no?
Ah... yes yes... ich liebe es.